Wow. What a difference a day makes.
You might have noticed that I was coming a little unhinged last week. The number of calls I got after I posted the blog with this picture, made me realize that the people who care about me were worried I was contemplating jumping off that bridge.
It's true--I have been on edge lately. I've felt burdened with a lot of responsibility on my shoulders, and pulled in a million different directions since 2011 began. But, like a marathon runner who knows how to pace herself so that she can cross the finish line in one piece, I have taken actions to ensure I'm not only going to survive the last week of April and the first week in May, but I'm going to bask in the glow of it.
I'm sorry if I worried you Mom, Robby, readers...but, I did promise at the beginning of this "journey" to chronicle the ups and downs of this development process. So, while I won't be posting any more pictures of discarded "We Are Happy to Serve You" coffee cups and bridges (Robby was particularly disturbed by that), I need to be honest about where I'm at if I want this to actually serve as a blueprint to other aspiring artists who decide to venture down a similar path. It aint' all roses.
You will be happy to know that my spirits are starting to soar again. Being back in the rehearsal room with my wonderful collaborators, our talented actors, our lovely cellist and our musical yesterday, was all I needed to remind me why I'm spending hours staring at contracts, spreadsheets, emails and producing "to do" lists. I love this piece. And the fact that we are fortunate enough to sit around, create and experiment on our terms, because we've maintained ownership over our project during this very fragile time, is priceless.
It does make me wonder what the theatrical landscape would look like if more people tried to develop commerical works of theatre this way. Because, there's no doubt about it--Helen on 86th is a commercial piece of musical theatre--that's being developed in a very uncommercial and unorthodox way.
Granted, it's not easy. But when artists are driven to create because of their love and passion for a project, rather than the demands, deadlines, and criteria of those who are funding their project, magical things can happen.